| please dont push me away
im happy where i am
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| God damnit .. I'm falling into the trap of thinking I need to lose weight. But its not that I think im fat , i just have noticed i have gained quite a bit of weight in the last year. I look at pictures from myself last year around this time and I look nothing like what I do now.
so here i go , Im going to start recording my meals and start workingout more
wish me luck !!
and please leave any comments giving good suggestions !
muah ! |
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| ill just have to accept this relationship for what it is. I'll always have a soft spot in my heart for you. You'll always be the guy that stole my heart, and ill love you tell the day I die. You can make your own choices, im tired of being insicure about this. acceptance is my only choice, and I choose love.
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You're the closest thing I have to bring up in a conversation about love that didn't last. But I could never call you mine because I could never call myself yours. It's not that our love died, it just never really bloomed. No, I can't let go of you. You're holding me back without even trying to. I can't let go, I can't move on from the past. Without lifting a finger, you're holding me back. No, we didn't die, we just never had a chance to grow. It might not make much sense to you or any of my friends, but somehow you still affect the things I do. You can't lose what you never had. |
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| You told me to trust you. I put everything I had ever felt , & everything I had ever learned from life into you. You said you'd never leave me , you said you'd never hurt me and you said if there is anybody in this world that I could trust it was you. You told me that if I were to leave ;you'd be devastated, for months on end. Our relationship wasn't even over and you turned your back on me , a whole year seems like it went to waste. A rough month between us to and you threw everything we had tried so hard for down the drain.
Maybe I'm just another girl to you , just a girl to get you through the bullshit . So that one day you can move on and find yourself a beautiful life. But I was stupid enough to believe you , and Im stupid enough to take you back , and I'll be stupid enough to do it again. Im such a sucker for you , I can't imagine what I would have without you. I'm finally inlove , for the first time in my life , no doubt about it , dont have to think twice , and now I'm the one getting played for a fool. Well play away because i cant turn away from you. Hurt me because I rather feel pain then nothing at all .
We use to be so inlove. Nothing else mattered but us spending time toegther. I never felt like I wasnt enough. I never looked in the mirror and wondered if your still inlove with the girl you met last year. I never had to compare myself to other girls , because you made me feel like I was the most beautiful girl in this whole entire world. I believed every world because if it came from the lips of an angel then who am I to doubt what you say. because if you forgot ... I trusted you.
But it all burned away with those messages , and those pictures. And they will forever be burned into the back of my mind. There wont be a day that goes by when i wonder what you really want , and when you will leave me for another.
"Even angels have their wicked schemes." |
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